Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Rant #2
So basically i'm tired of being me. No matter how hard i try i'm just not happy with the way i look. I look in the mirror and i see a hideous monster, and i hate it. My friends tell me im pretty but i just dont see it no matter how hard i try. Ive tried going on diets where i cancel out junk food, and i work out regularly, but im still not satisfied. I try making myself look perfect (even though i know ill never reach perfection) but im still never even slightly pleased with my looks. I try just accepting that i will never look the way i want to but that just makes me want to cry. Why cant i be happy? Why cant i be one of "those beautiful girls"? Why cant i be skinny? Why cant i have long, shiny hair? Why cant i have a perfectly smooth complexion? Why cant i just be satisfied with myself, instead of despising everything i see when i look in the mirror?
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i don't see anything wrong with you at all. you seem like a "real" person, anyone "real" to me is a beautiful person.
ReplyDeletenicole ily so much. and you are beutiful, no matter what. you must have confindence in yourself. if you dont then youll fall short. and your a strong person, and i love you. just look in the mirror and say "Damn I Look Good"
ReplyDeletegod. tell me why i feel exactly the same way. this is my feelings put into words. and we wonder why were best friends.. but anyways i love you girl. you know that. and whether or not you believe this is up to you but you are honestly one of the most beautiful people i know inside and out. and you know i dont lie. haha. sometimes i read your blog and wish you would talk to me about some of the things you blog about. you know im always here if you need to talk. i love you!
ReplyDeleteNicole, we all feel this way about ourselves. We don't see the things that make us beautiful because we only see our flaws. It can be anything from feeling like you have a weight problem to hating their own smile (me). What we all need to do is concentrate more on what we do have instead of what we don't have. We also all have those standards that we know that we will never meet. The impossible expectations that we all set for ourselves need to be simply be forgotten. I know it's easier said than done but we all have each other. We love you Nicole!
ReplyDeleteP.S. Congratulations again! Can't wait for the wedding!