Wounds

I never thought it would be so hard to walk five feet in front of me.
I never thought it would be so hard to hold back salty tears from slipping over the egde.
I never thought it would be do hard to stand in font of 195 people, and look them in the eye.
I never thought it would be so hard to stand on the other side with my friends and teachers.

I never thought someone could care so much about me.
I never thought someone would let the tears spill over.
I never thought someones arms folded tightly around my shaking body would be just what I needed.
I never thought someone I didn't know could have a string connection with me.

Not until today.
Not until I relinquished the streams from my shining eyes.
Not until those heartwarming arms were the only thing holding me together.
Not until my ignored wounds were ripped open, and I reveled them to strangers.

Obsession.

Thoughts circulate.
Haunting and cursing.

Images fabricate never
Dissolving for only a second.

Soft thumps, quick shadows:
Chilling whispers and unwanted figures.

I don't want you there,
Stuck.
Always there, never giving me

A break.

Powderpuff(:

So basically seniors are awesome and totally beasted tonight at the game against the juniors. Cari and I were the rejects and only played for a short amount of time but we did good when we were in and we had a lot of fun! I'm really proud of our whole team. The juniors were talking a lot of shit and we showed them, haha. I'm not very competitive but I really enjoy being apart of the class of 2011.
I actually understand more about football now, which is good since I am a cheerleader. I also surprised myself withhow much I was able to run and how fast could run when I played defense.
Tonight was such a great nightbut I'm super exhausted since I had a two hour cheer practice right before. Hope everyone who went to the game and everyone who was apart of it had a fun night!