Im ready to get out. I cant stand this anymore. I deal with stupid, annoying, immature people all day. I deal with constantly being judged about either my looks or the choices I make. Im constantly being asked,"and you dont think youre too young?" I cant take this stupid shit anymore, i want out. I dont want to deal with these imbeciles anymore and im tired of people looking down on me. Does it really make you feel better to point out my flaws? Obviously, im not as skinny as most girls and i do get the occasional pimples, but nobody is perfect. Yet, i feel like im not good enough for anyone because im not perfect.
Im a zombie walking through the halls of a prison, barely carrying myself from place to place. I sit, i write, i work, and then do it all again five more times. Everyday. It wouldnt be so bad if i didnt have to deal with the drama, complaints, and ridiculous remarks. I know that life will always be like this no matter if im in college or i have a job, but at least i know i have a future.
The problem is im stuck for eight more weeks, and i feel like im not getting anywhere at the moment. Im ready for my life to pick up. High school forces you to live life a certain way but now im ready for more, more opportunites. Im ready to make a life for myself. I dont want to be pushed down anymore, at least not here. Not where i feel like there is no point in getting back up. Out there they will push you down, but out there is where i want to get up, more than anything. Out there is where i want to be. Out there is what im waiting for.
Nicole i agree with you i can't wait to get the hell out of high school. I'm sick of all the little drama i just want to escape this prision. It's full of sluts, immature people and rude teachers and staff members that don't give a damn about us except mrs.haskett at least she attempts to get to know us and try understand us on a different level. At least you only have 8 more weeks left when the rest of us have 7 more months. I just keep trying to tell myself 7 more months untill i can actually start my life. And Nicole don't listen to that person you were talking about in class today. You are really pretty and NOT fat at all and you have amazing style. And good luck graduating early :)
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